wow. it's been so long since i actually updated in here.
my bad actually.
i've been quite busy with school and all.
okay, so here is the update.
- i'm currently in love with my best friend, and i think he knows it.
- now i'm in form 4, sort of like a senior in school.
- even though i'm in love, i've single for months now(it's actually a record :P)
- i also fell in love with ADDMATH! xD
- i might not be the same person like before :)
hmm what else? what else?
i guess that's all.
i'll try to update as much as possible :)
those eyes.
light brown.
but there's something hidden in those eyes.
i somewhat felt something strong.
i may be young and gullible and immature in so many ways.
but i know what i feel right now is not puppy love or monkey love.
somehow, i feel something strong.
but i truly wonder, does he feel the same way about me?
or is this just a one-way love?
i know i'm a fool to be like this.
but, isn't that love?
makes us feel silly always.
but then again, it brings us happiness.
only god knows what i'm feeling now.
towards those brown eyes.
i never want to see those eyes hurt.
ever.
i would hurt myself if i ever see those eyes hurt.
yeah.
the name sounds like it's meant for a cat or a teddy bear.
well, truth to be told, it's the name of my teddy bear.
my dad bought it for my when i was small on my birthday.
and i love it.
anyway, it's also a nickname that i pretty much give to the one who deserves it.
for a few days, i've been crying.
tears of joy, i guess.
i don't know.
but all i can say is that, i finally feel like i'm right where i'm suppose to be.
seriously.
and for once, i'm truly happy of it.
i'm grateful for everything.
my parents, my dear friends and him.
i feel really happy.
the past few days may have been boring,
but he was there to make things better.
and he was honest about things.
and the way he says things is in a kind way.
not like someone i know who would say it in a mean way.
god, i do care for him and i wish he would find happiness that will last foreve
To Mr. Vampire,
Before, i was so very much deeply in love with you.
You made me feel like the luckiest girl ever.
But now, when i look back, all i see was arguments.
lots and lots of arguments.
there were times when you would make me happy and feel loved.
but, when i would think about it now, no.
i didn't feel truly happy or loved.
just... used.
that's what i think now when i look back.
with those words that you would always say, you could sweep any girl of their feet.
but, if you try to use them now on me, don't even think bout it.
cause it'll never work on me again.
things will never be the same.
because of you, my taste buds is addicted to one kind of liquid.
thanks to you, i'm addicted to the darkness.
but since i met this certain person, everything changed.
i actually had the will power to stay away from that liquid.
now, i'm trying to stay away from the darkness.
i hope you will find happiness in this world, Mr. Vampire.
If not, i'm very sorry to say that i can't help you anymore.
Cordially,
Maris Stella.
