I've got an email from blogguru. If I didn't log in today my little blog would be gone for good...deleted.
Although I didn't post anything since last summer, I just can't delete all of this. It's my memory, This is like my timemachine, reading thoughts of my past. It's like reading someone elses diary. Because with each year I am growing to be another person. Me at my graduation and me now...it feels like to different persons (no I'm not shizophrene ;) ). I can't delete the thoughts I've written down here..it feels like a crime.
Reading my past entries I've realized that my english skills are getting worse. I don't have a chance to speak english now..because I don't have any english clases anymore :( I miss talking in english. Of course I still read books, I watch movies in english and dramas with english subs..But this is not the same.
So how have I been? I'm under a lot of stress right now. Only one year to go and I'll finish university with a bachelors degree. I think I will be studying to achieve the masters degree. Maybe I'll study in english. "Marketing and International business" how's that?
I think I'll start writing again...It feels good to be back again :) This is my way of dealing with stress: Writing or drawing (I suck at drawing :( but I like it :) )
Wow. it's been a year since I posted here.
That's always happening to me when I start writing diaries. It's lasting for 30 pages...and then I'm stopping. ^^°
Because I'm too tired, or because I'm having stress, I just can't do something every day regulary. Same goes for studies. If I would study every day a little, then it will be easier to study for exams. But I'm always find something more important to do.
Why am I back at this page? Because I received a friend request and was curious about how my blog looked like. :)
I have several diaries...but like I said I couldn't even fill 30 pages of my diary book. That's why every time I'm starting anew to write a diary, I'm buying a new note book. At least I'm trying to do it. I think it's cool to see, after years have passed, what I was thinking about.
Sometimes it's embaressing to see what I wrote about :)
I'm trying to write down (not here but in my notebook) things that I would speak aloud, things that I don't even like to think about: Things that worry me, things that are hard for me to accept. Seeing it on paper, releases my stress. It's easier to accept those things, once they are written down. When something is written down you can't run away from it. You can hide it, but it will always be there, if you don't burn or destroy it of course.
What I'm dealing with now:
I'm working and I'm writing a paper for university. It needs to have ten pages..I have written two..and I don't like what I have written so far.
Very Sad:
I was crying when I heard of Michael Jacksons death. Not because I was a fan.
But because it's so sad. I did't expect it to happen. I was at work and someone told me he died. I was shocked. When I came home and turned the tv on, seeing reports about him I started crying.
I watched his memorial too. I cried too...
Brooke Shields speach was very touching.
A few month ago I started to listen to MJ again, just because I remembered how great his music was in the 90's. And then a few weeks before his death, I watched all of his music videos...it was fun.
I was very, very sad hearing he died..and I just don't know why. But now I'm fine again, after seeing his memorial..and listeting to all the people who liked him so much.
Now what I'm currently addicted to:
Korean drama und music.
Wonder girls are making their debut in the US. Hope they are successful!!!
Girls Generation Genie sounds great :)
Super Junior Sorry, Sorry, Sorry and
Shinee "Juliett" are my favs now.
Previously I wrote about a friend that started to ignore me.
Now this friend came back, saying he was too busy with work. His financial situation seems to be difficult, he says he had to work 24/7.
He said that he already broke off with his girlfriend month ago.
He also said that he wasn't contacting me because he was too busy and he didn't want to confront me with his problems.
WHAT THE...?
Actually I'm not even angry with him anymore.
He came back at a point where I already had forgotten him, I'm not interested in his friendship anymore.
But then when i told him that I'm notinterested in a friendship, he was very shoked and nearly crying. Then he explained methe problems he had...and I must say
I pitty him.
I don't feel anything for him, I don't care about him...but I pitty him.
So I thought about it and decided to keep in touch with him.
I don't trust him but I can't turn my backon him too.
I will give him a chance. Of course we have to start from zero....
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Off topic:
Today I will go shopping...I still need to look for a dress.
wah..I'm so exited!! Prom and them Moscow.
Yeah ^_^v
Yeah I did it..... I passed all of my exams..and I don't even need to retake them.
I'm happy..my school days are officially over!
Though my results are avarege, I don't care.
I was so exited:
We had an assembly with all seniors and our headteacher.
He was talking and talking about the prom..and my exitment grew bigger and bigger.
Then he handed out our result sheets. I was so nervous, I didn't look at my results at first.
Then I went to our school library where I could be alone and read the result paper.
I'm relieved. I thought my results would be much worse.
On Friday 27 this month we will officially receive our results and graduate in a ceremony.
Now I need to think which dress I should wear...perhaps I will buy a new one ^_^
I' happy, happy, happy!
I thank God, because he helped me I'm sure.
I wouldn't have passed without luck.
On Saturday the European Soccer Championship has started.
Here are the groups:
A:
-Portugal
-Czech Republic
-Switzerland
-Turkey
B:
-Germany
-Croatia
-Austria
-Poland
C:
-Netherlands
-Italy
-Romania
-France
D:
-Greece
-Sweden
-Spain
-Russia
In the first round the teams have to compete against eachother within their groups.
Then two teams with the highest score from each group reach the quater finals.
And so on.
Game Results (so far):
Saturday:
Portugal (2-0) Turkey
Switzerland (0-1) Czech Republic
Sunday:
Austria (0-1) Croatia
Germany (2-0) Poland
If a team wins it gets 3 points, for a remis its 1 point each.
I must admit I didn't watch the games. I was busy and then I wasn't really exited about these games. I already knew who would win.
As for those who don't know:
Portugal, Spain, Italy (World Champion 2006),Netherlands,France and Germany are famouse teams in Europe.
As far as I remember Greece has won the European Championships in 2004, no one thought they would make it.
As for Russia: I'm not really optimistic, though a Russian soccer team has won the UEFA Cup.
Russias national team isn't really famous in soccer...they didn't participate in the World Championships 2006...and didn't make it to the European Championships 2004.
For Germany:Hmm..I think they can make it to the semi-finals. The biggest opponent for Germany is Italy.
Do you guys know soccer btw? Because I know that in the US soccer isn't really popular. But to us Europeans soccer is like football for the Americans.
When talking about soccer the word hooligans is often mentioned. Unfortunately there are some people who just can't accept the failure of their team.
There was a sad but famouse incident in which a french policeman was killed by hooligans. Really terrible.
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Hisashiburi...Long time no see..again.
The past 3 week I have been doing an internship at my cousins (small) company.
I was doing small things, mostly paper work.
But do you know what I've realised?
Working is nice. It's nice to be needed, to fullfill a task. Of course the people you work with are important too.
If the people always shout on you and bully you, then work becomes a torture. But working in a nice environment, doing not physical work, is really nice.
Actually I'm on holidays now, but doing nothing everyday and just relaxing is boring. And then this intership helped me to decide whether I should attend my business infomatics studies.
Now my internship has ended and I enjoy my free time.
On July 2 till July 16 I will be in Moscow and St.Petersburg.
I'm really exited and happy ^_^v
I will post photos from my trip here later on.
I will post the lyrics of "Believe in" by Dima Bilan.
He actually wrote the music by himself, and I think the russian version lyrics are written by him too.
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/Written by Viktor Belan aka Dima Bilan and Jim Beanz, produced by Jim Beanz/
Even when the thunder and storm begins
Ill be standing strong like a tree in the wind
Nothing's gonna move this mountain
Or change my direction
Im falling off that sky and Im all alone
The courage thats inside is gonna brake my fall
Nothings gonna dim my light within
But if I keep going on
It will never be impossible, not today
Cause Ive got something to believe in
As long as Im breathing
There is not a limit to what I can dream
Cause Ive got something to believe in
Mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if I just believe
And I believe in me
Even when the world tries to pull me down
Tell me that I can, try to turn me around
I wont let them put my fire out, without no!
But if I keep going on
It will never be impossible, not today
Cause Ive got something to believe in
As long as Im breathing
There is not a limit to what I can dream
Cause Ive got something to believe in
Mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if I just believe
And I believe:
I can do it all
Open every door
Turn unthinkable to reality
Youll see- I can do it all and more!
Believing
As long as Im breathing
There is not a limit to what I can dream
Believing
Mission to keep climbing
Nothing else can stop me if just believe
And I believe in me.
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I think the video is really emotional, the little boy is so cute, I even almost cried when I watched the video (yeah I`m kinda emotional).
Dima Bilan was participating in the Eurovison Song Contest for the second time.
In the year 2006 he got second place, finland has won the first place in that year.
Here is the song of 2006:
(I must admit his english was worse back then, but he is learning really hard to iprove his language skills)
--->Watch the video..this is really beautiful...you will be surprised at the end of the video!!
Dima performing at the Eurovison Song Contest 2006
Dimas performance at the Eurovison Song Contest 2008:
The ice skater is Evgeny Plyushenko, he is world champion in ice skating, and the viola (stradivari) is about 200 years old.
In Europe we have a "Eurovision Song Contest",
almost all european countries are competing in this contest by performing a song.
After every artist has performed (each country is represented by an artist), people from Europe vote per telephone voting for their favourite artist, but they can`t vote for their own country.
So for example, living in Germany I can`t yote for the german artist.
(The score range is from 1 to 12 points, for the 12 countries with the highest voting. Each country is giving their voting points)
So why am I so happy? Because Dima Bilan, who was representing Russia, has won the contest! Dima Bilan is the russian Justim Timbelake. His song "Believe in" was produced by Timbaland.
Here is the song:
Winning the contest means next year the " Eurovison Song Contest" will take place in Russia, Moscow!!!
It`s so cool, Russia won the ice hockey championships, and Zenit won the UEFA Cup,
and now Eurovison!!
I`m really happy for Russia.
Btw. I didn`t like the German act....it`s was awful...and they got the last place..haha..really I would support Germany, but only if their song was better.
Oh it's been so long since my last post..
somehow I've been too busy, though I wasn't really doing something...just relaxing and having fun.
Yesterday I went to a karaoke-bar with my friend....
It was real fun. At first I was a bit nervous because it's western-style karaoke: You are singing in front of the guests of the bar, people you don't know.
My friend and me were singing Country Roads..and many other songs.
The people were nice and sang along with us.
At midnight we left the bar and went to a club.
The music was really cool and we danced the whole night long.
I love dancing ^_^
There were some weird people in this club:
For example one was dancing all by himself, he wore strage clothes and while dancing he started to put them off....
I don't really understand why people go clubbing all by themselves...
Then there were some older people, about 40 years old....
When my friend and I were passing face control...we had to show our ID....this was surprising..I didn't though that I look younger than 18...
I returned home when it was about half past 4 in the morning and slept till 1pm.
Tommorow I will start an internship. I don't really know what I will be doing..but I hope that I don't make any mistakes.
Ganbarou!!!
Sorry my buddies...I didn't have time to comment on your blogs...but I will do it soon ^_^v
Today on May 9 people in Russia celebrate the Day of Victory against the Nazis.
In many russian cities parades take place, the most famous parade is in Moscow. The flag shown in the picture was set up by the soviets on the reichstag when they reachd Berlin. It is a very important part of the parade in Moscow.
Russian people use this day to thank all the veterans by giving flowers and greetings to them.
63 years ago the second World War ended.In this war my great-grandfather, my great-great-grandfather and his two daughters died.
Let us remember all the people worldwide who faught for liberty and against nationalism.
Lets thank all of them for giving us the chance to live freely.
Let us remember one of the biggest mistakes of mankind, so that it never ever happens again.
(Why May 9? Because when the capitulation was signed it was the late evening of May 8, in Moscow it was already May 9.)
little_eriko 
lyca 
Inna 
.cherrie mae. 
On Saturday the European Soccer Championship has started.
Today on May 9 people in Russia celebrate the Day of Victory against the Nazis.